今早重看了Randy Pausch 的最后一堂课，感悟非常多：

1. 如何实现儿时的梦想并将这个梦想与他人分享

2. 生活就是让自己每天都过得非常有趣

3. 越是批评你的人越是在意你

4. 随时准备别人射到你背后的箭，同时处之泰然

5. 引导学生的方法就是让他们更上一层楼

 

 

太多了， 虽然这个视频有点长，就像我一样，我第一次并没有看完，这应该是第三次了，虽然中间还真的打了瞌睡，可是终场更赚人眼泪！

 

广州，真是一个好地方。一直向往它在近代中国史上扮演的角色。多少豪杰，多少热血青年在这里憧憬着，奋斗着，思考，反思考！

这趟来广州，终于对它完全改观，这里的人、这里的气候、这里的食物、这里的底蕴。

今天要好好参观中山纪念堂。再吃吃跟家里这么相似的食物。

真如外甥说的，我们在这里，是这么容易溶入，这么没有不同。。。有趣的想法。

一周后，他回来了！就如姐姐说的，我们是如此期待，如此盼望！一部车子接着一部车子的引领眺望。远远一部卡车过来，就迫不及待的冲过去，转头看到别人的父母的摸样，心想，自己其实也是一样的反应。千百年了，盼子归的心情没有间断，千百年的情絮，是如此剪不断，理，还乱。

 

人类是情感的动物，如何表情达意，说白了，其实就是不设限、不要求更不强求。

弟弟兴奋地说着他的训练，我关心的是他是否辛苦，能否早起，有没有时间休息？吃得饱吗？千万别吃太急等！唉！我跟一般老妈子有什么两样？？？可是他总轻描淡写的、总是那么毫不在乎。

 

妈妈问：你宿舍在几楼？五楼。(啊，那早上你可要比别人早一点起来；下楼时，千万不要推挤。）

弟弟说：妈，我拿到枪了，好cool! 我还负责枪支回收，（不可能，才第几天？给了那些训练？）

妈妈问：你睡第几张床，靠楼道吗? 妈，我们已经完成5公里行军训练，（啊，怎么就开始了！）

 

我们用着不同的议题，宣泄着不同的情感，还好，大家都能体贴对方，都知道如何满足对方的议题。

总之，儿子长大了，妈妈更需要进步。

 

沟通是联系情感的丝线，这条线如何拉扯，已经是现代大国、大企业、大团体的功课了。别忘了，家里，才是真正训练的场所。

我要坚持每天练习！因为--改变只在一瞬间。

 

他从来没有长大，在我心里，他一直是一个baby.

 

从一开始，就觉得自己亏待了他，从一开始，就一再提醒自己，时间溜走了，一直到看着他站在队里，开步走了！还不能接受。

 

我没有认真与他渡过童年，没有和他渡过小学，除了开学的第一天，没有和他渡过中学，除了他的毕业礼。没有参加他Poly的毕业礼、除了送他上学。没有和他促膝长谈，没有，好像什么都不真实，都不曾存在，又似走过。20年，6千多个日子，怎么能这样就没了！

 

我甚至没有认真看他给小朋友上课，只听他说起小朋友如何喜欢他。没有看到他指导小朋友的样子，即使他是如何的骄傲地告诉我，他也是一个好老师。我太大意了，真是太大意了。

 

我还要错失多少个日子？！

 

20年在我们之间流逝。。。我多浪费时光呀！

千年一遇呀！

可惜不是在09090909写得。

最近不断自我反思，还是那个问题：what do I want? What am I pretend NOT to know!

发现自己的毛病，其实几十年如一日，真的是江山易改，本性难易。

 

今天终于做了决定，可以释放自己了。其实这也是自己偷懒的一个借口，总之还是：

发现问题不难

解决问题不易

 

该下决心了，时间不留人呀！

good site, good inspiration.

 

 

这一趟回家，虽然又是来去匆匆，可是感觉非常真切，好想家哦！

 

阳光是这么灿烂、海水是这么蓝、天空是这么晴朗、空气是这么新鲜；床是这么温柔、孩子，你们是这么甜！连小狗都想我！

 

医生要我好好照顾自己，他体贴的让人心花怒放。

 

44岁国庆！随处可以听到爱国歌曲、看到国旗飘扬！红白两色的五星旗是这么熟悉，这么好看！

 

整理教室、培训老师、到升松买菜、吃我爱吃的食物，和大哥大嫂说话、和老友见面聊天，和姐妹吃海鲜，啊！人生还需要要求什么？孩子，把你们拥在怀里，和你们相聚在一起，就是我最大的心愿！

 

答应妈妈，要快乐哦！

 

Once there was a giving tree
　　Who loved a little boy
　　And everyday the boy would come to play
　　Swinging from her branches
　　Sleeping in her shades
　　Laughing all the summer hours away
　　And so they loved, and oh the tree was happy
　　Oh, the tree was glad
　　
　　But soon the boy grew older
　　And one day he came and said
　　Can you give me some money, tree
　　To buy some things I've found
　　I have no money, said the tree
　　Just apples, twigs and leaves
　　But you can take my apples, boy
　　And sell them in the town
　　And so he did, and oh the tree was happy
　　Oh, the tree was glad
　　
　　Soon again the boy came back
　　And he said to the tree, I'm now a man
　　And I must have a house that's all my own
　　I can't give you a house, said the tree
　　The forest is my home
　　But you may cut my branches off
　　And build yourself a home
　　And so he did, and oh the tree was happy
　　Oh, the tree was glad
　　
　　And time went by and the boy came back
　　With sadness in his eyes
　　My life has turned so cold, he said
　　And I need sunny days
　　I'm nothing buy my trunk, she said
　　But you may cut it down
　　And build yourself a boat and sail away
　　And so he did, and oh the tree was happy
　　Oh, the tree was glad
　　
　　And after years, the boy came back
　　From both ends of the world
　　I really cannot help you
　　If you ask another gift
　　I'm nothing but an old stump now
　　I'm sorry, boy, she said
　　I'm sorry, but I've nothing more to give
　　I don't need very much now
　　Just a quiet place to rest
　　The boy, he whispered with a weary smile
　　Well, said the tree, an old stump is still as good for that
　　Come, boy, she said, sit down
　　Sit down and rest awhile
　　And so he did, and oh the tree was happy
　　Oh, the tree was glad

 

没有想到时间就这样过去了！

5月在新加坡匆匆的度过两天，5月底急急搬了家，还没来得及好好和女儿拍几张家居照，又速速地去了广州、香港、珠海、北京、又南京！昨天去了保定河北大学，然后到了荷花盛开的白洋淀。时间就这样流逝了。。。

 

好快好快！快得让人好害怕。。。

 

终于感觉时间走了，人走了，心却非常依恋。。。。

天下的妈妈都是一样的！

希望孩子可以无忧无虑的长大，希望孩子可以健康快乐。。

孩子不开心，是母亲的最痛，

孩子不平安，是母亲的最忧，

孩子不明白，是母亲的最急，

孩子呀孩子，你是我心里永远的挂念。。。

My birthday is coming, and I have receiving all the birthday wishes showering on me!

 

very glad to live to this day, and very glad that friends remember me, and students thanks me....

 

what a wondful live...

 

生日即将到了，已经吃了两个蛋糕，接到许多祝福与鲜花， 多美好的人生啊！

朋友记得我，学生感激我。。。

 

人生如此，夫复何求！

今天是大年初七，人日。在新加坡，大家要捞鱼生，再吃一次团圆饭！

今天是大年初七，我自己到了北京，第一次感觉到孤独的滋味！

我想，我的孩子也一样会觉得不圆满。。这就是人的意义吗？

孩子，我最爱你们！

菜根谭。下集之16：从冷视热，然后知热处之奔驰无益，从冗入闲，然后觉闲中滋味最长！

 

能如此清闲，还真得感谢自己“大”病一场。每天早上不是到楼下花园做机械早操，就到Upper Pierce 蓄水池跑步练太极拳，然后美美得到各处寻早餐吃；然后来个脚底按摩；再睡个午觉，读读书，再煮个晚餐，看看电视，和孩子聊聊天。什么也不想，什么也不急，真是滋味最长！

13-1-2009

 

Today I start my Tai Ji Quan. Learning from Ms Zhang @the Sembawang Park. I sweat and feel good. Oh, I have posted the Tiajiquan 24 forms on my video, v good demo.

今天我开始到公园和一位张女士学太极拳。她打得正好！难得流汗，感觉非常好! 我到YOU Tube, 把太极拳24式上传了，而且会一式一式教，真好！有空上来练拳！

 

11-1-2009

 

I have accupuntual today on my right face and have Chinese medicine. is powder form and easy to eat. Most importantly, is make me feel good！ 

今天我到马光中医院，进行了走罐、针灸（右脸）还拿了一些药粉。感觉很好。

 

9-1-2009

 

I was discharged from hospital on the 29 Dec evening. It seems recovery although my ear is still v pain. On the 2rd of Jan, I realized that my right eye keep having tear when I read. On the 3rd day, my right face was numb and seem unable to control my muscle from eye, mouth and later at night, my nose. I went back to emergency unit that night and was diagnose as Bell's Palsy. Doctor said, it might be the infection of my right ear that cause this numbness, but since I cannot control my eye lid, my eye tend to be half close and tear keep dripping. So I have to wear an eye musk in order to prevent dry eye. I was told not to read but rest. Especailly not to the computer.

 

Yesterday I have my repeated visit to my ENT specialist, I have my hearing test and also to take a MRI, IAM screening. My right ear hearing has reduced 13% below normal and because of the numbess still on, doctor advice to take the Magnetic Resonance imaging on my right brain to detect whether there is any tumur in my brain??!!   He said, 95% of my numbness should be related to my ear infection, but, to play safe, he wants me to take the MRI. Result will only available 3 days later, so I just need to keep my finger cross!

 

I have been exercising since 1st Jan. My sister has acompanied me to the natural reservior and I have increased my jogging to almost 800meter now. I did yoga everyday and go to Chinese doctor for Chinese herb, he said my body is too heaty and I have been drinking the Herb medicine everyday too. Oh yes, I also have my foot massage everyday too and yesterday I have a body massage with steaming, I am glad I was all sweat and perspiring and feel light in my whole body.

 

I will get better and join all of you to continue our passion in serving young children and teachers.

 

Cheer!

 

28-12-2008   I was warded in Singapore Tan Tock Seng Hospital on Christmas day, 00:00hours, 2+ hours after I landed from Beijing.   I have been having fever since last Sat and Sun. On 22nd Monday, I went back to united family hospital A& E, but only received antibiotic, pain killers and a inhailer. On Tuesday, I felt breathless but still manage to meet the Lead teachers from PS who sending a protest letter to HQ. Of course, I also secured a 1st class ticket on X'mas eve back home. Wed after some photos taking from a magazine, i rushed to airport, but was already in my worst shape, they refuesd to let me board the plane. I took my inhailer, beg them, signed an agreement, board the plane. But I ws having higher fever on the plane and was  being help by wheel chair and rush to A&E in TTSHospital.    I was treated by ENT specialists here @ home and am getting better now, able to eat a little, talk a little, cos my throat is killing me and my ear is worst, I can't hear very well at the moment but doc said it is getting better.   My daughter said my face is green and my son said I am skinest.   Well, I'm glad I am home and my sisters has been bringing me soups for the past few days.   The worst thing is I might need to spent my new year eve in the hospital too, but best is, I got all my missing sleeps repay :)  oh, my room has a very nice view....green and sunny..

这么久没去台湾，竟然让我们与台风辛乐克碰个正着！此乃生平第一次让台风洗礼，真是犀利！没完没了！外加风啸雨打，让我们寸步难移。

宇辰应是受了风寒，发烧了！也没吃着她的最爱--臭豆腐，到大溪的那一盘，不算，因为周边环境有点恶心！

大溪还是老样子，这么古朴，这么悠闲！街上传来那种属于台湾的闽南语歌曲，路边的小音乐教室，传来“望春风”，太美了！

现在做这篇日志，口里还咬着大溪豆干，夫复何求？美哉！

奥运，有期待，没兴奋，也没有特殊的感觉！

开幕式让人欢呼，心情特别好，因为回到家里，与两个孩子一起分享，因此才特别！

11日到北京，天天讲课，13日意外获得学生送来一张票中国对古巴的排球赛票，晚上一人赴会，留下三姐，心有不安！

毕竟有30年没有再进球场，而且也超过30年不坐在场边观球，往事重重出现，太不可思议了！

时间，竟是如此倥偬！